Am I Changing?

I start to feel I’m changing. I’m not the one I use to be. I’m more introverts. I really want to share so much, but I was just made a mistake in trusting someone. I don’t want to make the same mistake. When I want to talk, my mind said, “Will she gives you good advice or will she makes a new problem?”…

I start to think that I am a deviance. Why it such a hard to find someone who can comfort with me. Friends are everywhere, but I want to have good friends. Dear people, I’m here, step my feet on the ground… Alhamdulillah, there are still

Maybe I’m not a person who can be too close with someone else. I’m not comfort with it. There are some distances I want to keep. It’s not about what they can’t ask me to, but how much they force me to be someone else.

Sometimes I want to say, “If you feel comfort to be my friend, let’s have a good friendship and let’s learn to ikhlash with it. But if you feel uncomforted with me, just go away but don’t hurt me.”